A day of Surprise

   Hi all, Our cat Ezzie has been sick so we took her to the vet. We got the shock of our lives! We found out , " She" is actually a neutered "He" !😄 So Ezzie is still Ezzie but no longer Esmeralda!  They did blood work and we are waiting to find out if he has a thyroid  issue. Praying it will be a simple fix. So thankful  we were finally able to take him. Hoping this will improve his health and our situation at home .It's been a real struggle not being able to find the source of his issues. ........... On a bleaker note, I am pretty conflicted today about my health and inability to work, sometimes it just hits me so hard, I just want to cry.  I keep thinking if I just make the right moves, I could fix stuff and things will get easier. I pray daily for knowledge and clarity to understand what to do . Sometimes the silence is really painful, especially when I know there is such a need. And I know Scott could use my support. I feel like my hands are tied with an invisible rope I don't know how to break. I know God knows and sees the needs, I just don't understand why I'm still in the waiting. It hurts me to see so many ways I need to help but being unable to do anything. My heart is overwhelmed with the sadness. It hurts deeply. I don't take any suffering lightly, no matter how others see  it or presume to know me.  I just want to help make things better and I don't know how to overcome my health to do it.  I pray God opens a door somewhere soon. Got to keep on, keeping on, even when it hurts. When I am afraid, I will put my trust in You. Psalm 56:3.